I did my hand lettering this past weekend. I’m not sure how I feel about it – I didn’t think I should go too decorative because that doesn’t feel “melancholy” to me but I feel like it’s not enough…?
Here’s how it is currently. I may revisit this after I do some of my other objects and get those squared away.
I’ve started collecting materials for my paper and melancholy scent. I have things that smell like wet dirt after it rains and some gentle flowers and things. I’m excited to concoct that.
I got a fourth committee member: Alex Brilliandt. He was my high school digital media and english teacher and a sort of mentor to me growing up in some of my most melancholy years. I felt like his skills in conceptual thinking and his knowledge would help me with the concepts behind my work.
I worked on my song some more this week. I’m almost done – I’m recruiting my husband to help me master it (fix the volumes and things like that) since I’m not really sure how to do all of that. I think my song is really coming together well. I’m happy with it.
I brainstormed some more packaging ideas but that slowly bled into sketches for my tattoo, which I need to do on Saturday I think if I remember my timeline correctly. I combed through my old journals from high school (i used to be an avid journal-er and also constantly melancholy) and found a lot of things I forgot about. I kept letters, accounts of my days, drawings, songs, and lots of pressed flowers. Lots of letters I wrote and never sent. It was actually kind of difficult to look through and gave me a little heartache but I think that means it’s good for this project.
I found a flower that my now-husband gave me in 2015 that I pressed. Nature is really core to my experience with melancholy. I’m thinking of working with some kind of imagery based on that for my tattoo. I don’t have a ton of real ideas for my packaging yet but I have vague ideas floating around that I’m excited to dig into this weekend.
I’m getting frustrated with school. I want to devote all of my time to this project. I haven’t done much that makes me feel the way this project does but I feel like I can’t focus on it. I don’t feel like a good designer and I don’t feel at all creative because I have so much pressure on me from school and work and I can’t let either one go just now. I don’t work creatively under stress and I do not like it.
Melancholy 